My cousin sent my brother and ME this silly thing she did online. The faces are those of ME, my cousin, her husband, Scott and my brother! Have fun watching it over and over again…

I went to a local Arby’s the other day to grab a bite to eat real quick and encountered the poster woman for my “Good Enough” post. I walked in with both Boyz, my niece and my in-laws. We stopped before the line to look at the menu and decide what everyone wanted before stepping up for the order. The ugly lady behind the counter yells at us, “For here or to go?” in a hasty voice making it sound like she was in a big hurry when there was no one else there. I then watched Ugly get all huffy over Sam running around a dividing wall and realized that she was in a hurry to get us out of there. I ignored Ugly because Sam was not being loud or annoying - plus, there was no one in the place for him to annoy and he only ran around like three times and stopped. I was looking at the menu above Ugly’s head when Sam and Keirra started playing with the line divider things. Again, no big deal - they weren’t hanging on them or throwing the poles to the ground. They were simply touching and stretching them a bit - respecting the rope thing. So, Ugly behind the counter tells my mother-in-law to stop them and my mother-in-law tells them to stop - which they did. The kids were being really good this day - and I was really happy with them. I stepped up to the counter to give my order, I open my mouth and Ugly interrupts me because my niece is touching the damn line rope thing, “Could you ask her not to do that?” The annoyance bursting out of her. I rolled my eyes, turned to Keirra and said, “Keirra, please don’t touch that. Thanks.” I then turned back to Ugly and tried to order quickly because my patience was quickly running out. I was giving my order and Sam was telling me that he wanted a juice box with his kids meal - there was a cardboard sign right next to the cash register with kid meal information and so Sam grabbed it to show me. Ugly’s reaction was that of a Grandmother when the toddler has just picked up a priceless heirloom. Her face contorted and she sucked her breath in as if to tell me she’d had enough with my unruly children and then she grabbed the cardboard sign out of Sam’s hand… That was it! I had enough of this ugly bitch and her issue with my kids! My child was simply trying to show me the sign and her reaction to it was totally uncalled for. I grabbed Sam and Keirra and left! My in-laws were all confused and had no idea why I was running out in such a huff so I called back, “If she’s going to have a heart attack over the cardboard sign, then we need to leave!” I was so mad I was shaking! I put the kids in the car and made sure they understood that they did nothing wrong and that the lady was crazy and it was all her fault!”

I should have called the manager to complain, but I was so mad I didn’t want to sound like a crazy woman. I then got busy with Jack’s birthday party that day and lost focus on Ugly. I do hope that others complain and her ugly ass is fired - but I doubt it. It just goes to show a person who needs to never deal with the public is there dealing with the public. My mother-in-law blamed it on my passionate dislike for fast food joints, but after I told her everything this woman was doing she understood. Although, this didn’t help my dislike for fast food - because they are always rude and unprofessional. I don’t know exactly what it is, but more than anything rude stupid people are found working the counter at the fast food joints… hummm… Respect for the paying customer has no meaning because they are too narrow-minded to realize the importance of a paying customer.

So, if you live locally and have children my advice is that you stay away from the Arby’s in Minden. I know they have always been nice in the past - but if Ugly is working the counter…watch out!

I love my job and I love what I do, but at the same time I don’t feel good enough to be doing what I am doing. A recent conversation with my mother inspired me to write this blog - someone doing something I do not agree with because I doubt they are good enough. I won’t name any names or make it clear to who I am talking about, but there are jobs in life where being the best is highly important. Let’s use my job, Sign Language Interpreter, as an example. I am good at what I do - not to toot my own horn, but I am. I am better at talking to the Deaf than Interpreting for them - and I know it. I go to work everyday to hang with my buddies - two boys I have been with through middle and now high school. I interpret for them, but I have a lot more skill and fun when I get to chat with them. They graduate this year and this year will also be my last year as an educational Interpreter. Why? Because, I do not feel good enough for my job. Like I said, I am great at talking with the Deaf, but I am not the best at interpreting. A job I truly feel like you need to be the best. Sure, there are so many other reasons involved to why I am making this my last year, but an Interpreter is not who I am. People ask me all the time if I’ll continue with Sign Language - and I think I will because I love it! Then, they ask if I am not Interpreting for schools would I go work at the hospitals or with the police. My big fat answer to this is “NO” and it’s not because I dislike Interpreting - it’s because that job means that I must be perfect! Perfect because that’s another person’s life that I am dealing with - one wrong word and the person could go to jail or die! I mean, we have a hard enough time communicating with the doctors when we can speak the same language. I would hate to make a vital mistake in where the pain was or what kind of medication the person is allergic to… Makes me ill just thinking about it. If I had a Deaf friend - or one of my students - needed me at the hospital or if they were arrested I would be there in a heartbeat! Why? Because I know them and because I know their signs well enough to feel comfortable interpreting for them. A stranger is so different - Sign Language is not that simple! There are some Interpreters, and I know some, that can walk in and kick ass! And still, only one of them is certified! I just feel like you need to be perfect and you would need to be able to kick some ass…otherwise, stay out! Leave the important jobs to the people who know what they are doing inside and out. I don’t want to sound like I don’t trust myself - if someone called and asked me to help at the hospital or jail, I could totally do it. I don’t doubt that I wouldn’t be able to go in there myself, but, what I am saying is that I could never forgive myself if something were to happen. There are days I come home from work and my student was trying to tell me something but I wasn’t getting it and finally hours later it will sink in and I’ll get it! Then the next day I’ll go in and we’ll talk about it. I cannot go to an arrest and come home only to figure out hours later that he really didn’t mean what I had interpreted! I cannot go back and be all, “Oops, my bad.”

There are people a lot more talented than I am for interpreting. I know I am a lot more talented, than even the ones who could kick my butt in interpreting, at conversing with the Deaf. If there is an ounce of doubt - do not do a job you know in your heart is meant for a perfectly skilled individual. I just feel so strongly about this and it bothers me knowing there are thousands of people out there doing jobs they really have no skill for.

I am going to quit and go find myself. I want to sign, I just don’t want to be invisible going it. Maybe a counselor for the Deaf would be an awesome job for me… But, right now I want to be a mommy and I really feel like I am skilled for this job! *smile*